Something New: I hadn’t been this excited about something in almost a year. I found myself grinning stupidly to myself at the most awkward of moments and in completely inappropriate situations, but I couldn’t help it. It made me happy.
I’d, “Ummed,” and “Ahh,” about it, but I knew that it was the one thing I really wanted to do again and it was something that made me feel as though I had a purpose. I knew I was good at other stuff too, but this was my passion. This was Number One.
I often warned guys who wanted to date me, about it. They were always going to be second. It didn’t mean I loved them less, it just meant I had something within myself that made me complete. I didn’t need them to be a whole person. I was already just fine.
This was something new, something exciting and something that was coming very, very soon.
Jack Crispy may have been my pen name in the past, but for this I wanted people to finally see the real me. I wanted them to know me.
And for that, I needed to use my real name.