Contrast:Last night my brain wouldn’t let me sleep. It was thinking but it was thinking creatively and using my subconscious. That was a weird kind of thing for me and yet the past few days I had known it was coming.
Everything I’d read; everything I had heard from people; it was all pointing to one thing: change.
If you had asked me years ago what I thought about change I would have told you it was something I tried to avoid. It was inevitable though, so trying to control it (or anything really for that matter!) was futile. And so I had learned to embrace it; to lean in to it. To go with the flow if you like.
I discovered last night as I lay in bed tossing and turning that my soul was trying to tell me something if I just stopped and listened.
I took a deep breath and just waited and didn’t fight. And then it came as I knew it would.
I had been holding onto this outdated version of myself for so long and it wasn’t doing me any good anymore. Everything I had done that ended up with the same results wasn’t working.
So… I changed. I was in stark contrast to who I had been and yet, I was also more me than I’d ever been before.
Bloody spring weather. The winds made you crazy if you resisted, but if you let them become part of you, they soon got bored and let you go.
My ego was the same.