Inactivity: Inactivity was a word I didn’t associate with myself. I was always out and about doing something. But today I just couldn’t move. I didn’t have the motivation nor the energy to leave my apartment.
I can’t say what had changed between yesterday and today but something had definitely shifted. It was subtle but it was there.
I had slept deeply but fitfully, waking up every two hours, checking my constantly buzzing phone and then surrendering to sleep again. I felt like I was submerged beneath the ocean, coming up for breath before plunging back down under the waves.
When I finally surfaced, that is woke up, I felt as though I had been hit by a bus. My limbs were stiff and sore and as I studied my reflection in the mirror I noticed I had bitten my tongue. I hadn’t done that for months.
What was going on?!