199. Hiding Spaces:
I felt like running away.
My feelings were overwhelming me and my mind would not stop thinking. I wanted to shut it all out, but I couldn’t.
Thank goodness for my friends who knew what a hard time I was having and had invited me out to dinner. Grateful as I was though, I knew the moment I went home and was alone, it would start all over again. It was a vicious cycle and one I just could not seem to break out of.
I thought back to my days as a child when everything was simple and I could go to one of my many hiding spaces and just remove myself from the world for awhile.
That’s how I felt now. Maybe I was overthinking things. I was sure I was fine, but there was always that niggling feeling and a voice that said, “Yeah, but are you really?”
Time would tell, but it seemed as though it were dragging on forever and I just wanted to be put out of my misery one way or the other. Then at least I could deal with it.