193. From the Roof-tops:
I wanted to shout it from the roof-tops. I wanted to tell everyone who my wonderful boyfriend was. But at the same time, I liked only my closest friends knowing. I liked having our own private secret at work and being able to steal glances at each other from across the room.
More than once I’d wanted more than anything to be able to reach out and touch him, but I didn’t dare. I respected him far more than that and didn’t want to risk him being embarrassed in front of others. He was the same with me. Although, I had noticed recently that both of us had lowered our guard a bit and would brush past each other a little closer than was necessary between coworkers.
I’d been grinning for weeks. I couldn’t help it. In fact, I couldn’t wipe the smile off my face. I knew sometimes I looked ridiculous, but that was just further proof that I was happy and I watched as people who saw me smiling also began to smile. In a way I was spreading the love and happiness around and in a world full of terrorism and so much pain, I felt it was the least I could do. If it made the world a better place I was 100% okay with looking like a fool.
The only thing that was worrying me was what was going to happen next year.