167. Give and Receive:
I had always been of the opinion that you don’t give if you don’t receive. The problem with that attitude, however, is that if everyone followed suit, no one would ever give anything!
And this original thought wasn’t just restricted to love. It also applied to sex. If you received some form of sexual pleasure, it was not that you were just expected to, but obliged, to give back in some way.
At least, that was my attitude, until I met Graham. He was the first guy who had actually pulled me back up to kiss me and to say, “I don’t want that, I want you,” when I tried to go down on him.
It was then that I really fell in love and changed my entire way of thinking. Without expecting anything in return, I needed to give my love freely. In doing that, I came to see that my life was not only richer, but I had more love than I knew what to do with.
And that’s never a bad thing.