365 Days Writing Prompt Challenge: Day 103

103. Secret Message:

I wasn’t Japanese, but I’d ‘read the air,’ and I was right.

His eyes contained a secret message.

With just one glance, a line had been crossed and there was no going back. We’d started something and I wasn’t sure if either of us were going to finish it.

I wasn’t sure there WAS a finish.

I couldn’t remember what had happened because my mind seemed to be just one great big blur of thoughts. They were like spiderwebs that clung to you no matter how hard you tried to shake them.

I’d tried meditation to see if that would calm my thoughts and maybe make sense of it all, but I couldn’t sit still for long enough. I’d tried sleeping and a combination of drugs and alcohol, but all that did was cause lucid dreams. I wasn’t sure if the dreams were from the stimulants or if it was just my twisted mind playing tricks on me.

In the end I’d done what I always do when I can’t think clearly and don’t want to face reality: I ran.

I hadn’t run for nearly 10 years, but that morning I laced up my joggers and headed for the river and I ran and ran and ran.

And for a brief moment in time, my mind was totally clear.

But then I stopped.

And my thoughts caught up to me.






      1. Thanks. It’s done. And I will be. xx (I’m going to release my angst in a post tonight, in a hypothetical way so it’s not too obvious. You’ll probably pick it though).

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      2. Man! We’ll all going through some tough stuff at the moment. My emotions are all over the place (that could also be PMS!) and I know it’s not the way to deal with stuff, but today I’ve shut down and am avoiding, denying and running away from stuff I don’t want to deal with right now.

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      3. I can relate. I do that too. Though today I faced what I had to face and did what I had to do to end a situation. And it was so hard. And privately I’m still crying. Man, the stuff we go through. Take care.

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      4. I will do this for awhile until I process how I feel and when I can face it, I will. To tell you the truth, it hit me like a ton of bricks and suddenly I was like, “Oh shit!”

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      5. I’m glad I had a lot to do today because it’s kept my mind busy. Sleeping has been difficult and I feel really, really tired.

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      6. It’s funny you should say that, because my best friend sent me a similar message. He and I are very in tune with each other and our moods do influence the other person, but even so…

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      7. I woke up today thinking I was going to be positive, moving forward. I’d made the decision, ended it, moved on and still I’m crying. And my heart feels ripped out. I’m a mess.

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      8. Oh, I’m sorry. Isn’t it weird how when you understand how someone feels you press the ‘like’ icon on their page? That’s kind of horrible!

        Oh, well I do feel better because I made a decision, but I still feel like I’ve been hit by a truck. My body aches everywhere.


      9. I didn’t press ‘like’ on that comment. Couldn’t. But I feel your pain. Take care. And let’s try and stay positive. We’ll both be okay.


      10. I agree. I’m not pressing it anymore unless it’s a positive thing. You take care too. Yep, we will! And the sun is shining here today after pissing down with torrential rain all day yesterday. That’s already a positive thing. πŸ™‚ xxx

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      11. I pressed like cos the sun is shining here too πŸ™‚ The sky is blue and a new day lies ahead. Let’s try and make the most of it. πŸ™‚


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