I suffer from Seasonal Affective Disorder or SAD as it is known (Google it for a fascinating insight into why you might feel the way you do!) and of course the change of seasons hits me the hardest. In Japan, which is known for its four very distinct seasons, I will always feel a bit off for the first few days of a new season and this often results in things like coughs and colds with the change in temperature. Unfortunately, it also means some ups-and-downs with depression and anxiety. Yes, lots of fun stuff! 😛
The past few days/weeks and probably month have been particularly stressful (mostly my own doing of course!) and today all I really feel like doing is running away to the mountains where nobody can find me and having what I like to refer to as, ‘radio silence,’ i.e. no communication with anyone via phone or Internet. I haven’t been sleeping well either and will wake up around 1.30 or 2 every morning, check my phone and then go back to sleep. Being frustrated about a particular situation isn’t helping either.
So of course to combat all these emotions and to stop the feeling of ‘flight or fight’ that I’m currently experiencing, I did some artwork. This was the result:
I used white cardboard and a black oil crayon to write words that relate to emotions or feelings. I then used a combination of four red/vermillion/orange/yellow crayons to obscure the words to represent the fact that I’m not quite sure how to describe what I’m feeling. After that I took a photo of it using my iPhone and then used the Glaze app to blur the words, giving it a 3D effect which also looks like E. coli under a microscope. Unlike E. coli though, my emotions aren’t multiplying though! Thank God!
And if you’re wondering what the words say… I’m not telling! Look closely and you might be able to figure it out for yourself! 🙂